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Peri-menopause: I have no words!

Soooo, I started my period today.  It’s day 25 of my cycle.  For the first three months of this year I was back to a 28 day cycle, but the last two months I’ve been down to a 25 day cycle, just to keep me on my toes.

Yesterday I felt OK(ish).  I was extra tired, had cramps and (TMI warning!) my bits were sore because the environment ‘down there’ isn’t as moist as it used to be and my undies chaff, but I still felt well enough for a potter round a nearby plant nursery with my friend.  Went to bed last night and all was fine.

Woke this morning at 5am, which is ridiculous.  So I put my talking book on (Michael J. Fox’s memoir ‘Lucky Man’ which discusses his early onset Parkinsons Disease) and must have dozed back off because the next thing I knew it was 7.30am.  Now that’s more like it.

Got up to feed Bertie, made myself a brew, and went back to bed for Bert’s morning tummy rub and to ‘come to’.  But by the time I reached the top of the stairs I knew something was amiss.  I started to sweat.  Everywhere.  It ran in rivers off my head and down my back.  And then I felt all the colour draining from my face and the world started to swim.  Hmmm, I think I’d better lie down before I fall down.  I collapsed onto the bed like a rag doll.  Bert nudged me for a bit then decided he obviously wasn’t getting his tummy rubbed and promptly went to sleep.  Typical bloke 😉

I felt horrendous and like I was going to pass out, even though I was lying down.  I have a ceiling fan above my bed, so I turned that on.  It felt lovely and cool on my skin, but poor Bert started to shiver, so I covered him with my half of the duvet.  I also had god awful period pain and my hip bones felt like they were on fire.

I keep a blood pressure monitor under my bed, so I fished it out and took a reading.  79/45!!!!!  And my pulse was 43.  WTF?!

I then realized I needed the loo.  Urgently.  As I sat on the throne, sweating like a roasting hog, I didn’t know whether I was going to poop, puke or pass out.  This is when living alone can be quite scary.  For the next hour I staggered between my bed and the loo, with horrendous diarrhea and chilling sweats.  Even my lips were white and I couldn’t sit upright without wanting to pass out.

Then my period actually arrived and over the next two hours things mercifully started to calm down.  I put my TENS machine on both my back and stomach, so the cramping pain lifted slightly (though as I’m typing this I still feel like someone is inside my uterus with a blow torch).  I managed to have a drink.  And my BP came up to a more respectful 104/54 (which admittedly is my usual BP for when I’m sleeping, not awake and upright).

It’s now evening and I’ve finally managed to eat something.  I still feel rubbish, but it’s a ‘normal’ period-induced rubbish, not the I-think-I’m-about-to-die rubbish I felt this morning.  I’m going to run a bath now because I feel truly icky – I just hope the heat doesn’t send my BP plummeting too far again.

I have no idea what this was all about and I hope it doesn’t happen again any time soon.   When is the menopause going to happen?  When?!  I just want my periods to be over with because all this malarkey for the past 36 years has been like some kind of torture!


Peri-menopause update

As regular readers will know, I’m 47 and in peri-menopause.  At least I thought I was, but something weird is happening and I don’t know what to make of it. My periods have been regular as clockwork my whole life.  Excruciatingly painful, but regular at between 27 and 28 days.  In 2012, however, they started to change.  Just slightly, but change nevertheless.  Here is what my cycle looked like, alternating between 27 and 30 days: MC2012In 2013 things really started to go awry.  My cycle was all over the place, and I had other symptoms of peri-menopause like the occasional day time hot flush, being on fire in bed every night, rage, mood swings and weepiness – it was like puberty all over again, which was shit the first time round and isn’t much better the second.  Here is what my cycle looked like in 2013, with my periods ranging from 21 to 30 days: MC2013From everything I read about peri-menopause online I just expected the symptoms to get worse and worse.  I then expected to start missing periods as my ovaries packed up.  But it hasn’t happened.  Last year saw my periods start to even out again, and in the latter part of the year they were between 25 and 28 days: MC2014And so far this year, the situation has become more bizarre still.  My cycle has been bang on 27 days for the past 3 months – my periods couldn’t get any more regular if they tried: MC2015I have had no more hot flushes, although I still spend all night with my legs on fire and sweating like a roasting hog, plus my mood has stabilized and my rages have mercifully stopped.  What on earth is going on? I surmised that treating my mast cell disease has had an impact on my menopausal symptoms, which is great, but it shouldn’t have any effect on my cycle.  We have a finite number of eggs and once these are all used up our cycles stop.  Nothing we eat or don’t eat can change this fact – once your periods start to change that should be the end of things.  Oh, how I wish it were the end of things and my 4 weekly migraines/nausea/diarrhea and cramps were over with.  I was looking forward to the menopause and now I feel cheated that it may not be happening after all.

Despite extensive Googling I can find no-one of my age who’s periods have started to wane then returned to normal again- it simply doesn’t happen.  I was resigned to being in peri-menopause and relieved that in the next 5 years or so my period nightmare would be ending.  And now I’m all at sea again, feeling out of control and not knowing what on earth is going on.  Just when I think I have a handle on something my body decides to once again take the upper hand and remind me very firmly that it is in charge.  Like I could ever forget!