Sorry there has been no blog post this week – I simply didn’t have the time, and more importantly, the energy.
Tuesday I drove my Dad 90 miles to the other side of the country for his pre-op assessment. He has spinal stenosis due to a bulging disc and needs decompression surgery. Eighteen months ago he was still walking 6 miles up the mountains every week but now needs a wheelchair outdoors and has to use a stairlift to get up the stairs to his apartment. His deterioration has been swift and scary and he’s desperate for surgery, for which he’s now been waiting nearly 4 months. At the assessment we met the Surgeon who will be carrying out my Dad’s operation and he dropped a bit of a bombshell. He said that although my Dad’s MRI scan showed the narrowing in his spinal canal it isn’t bad enough to be giving my Dad such severe symptoms and he thinks something else may be going on further up his spine. So while we wait for the surgery to take place I’ll need to take him back to the Hospital a further two times, once for an MRI of his upper back and neck and once for some nerve conduction tests. While it’s bloody annoying to have to do another couple of 180 mile round trips I’m glad that the Surgeon is being thorough. My Dad has MGUS (monoclonal gammopathy of undetermined significance) which showed up unexpectedly in his bloodwork a year ago and none of the doctors I’ve spoken to so far have wanted to know. However, MGUS can cause peripheral neuropathy and we need to know whether that is contributing to his leg weakness. He also has cramping/spasming hands to the point where he can’t even pick a cup up and again this has been ignored by the doctors we’ve seen so far. But it’s not normal for heaven’s sake and I’m chuffed the Surgeon agreed and has decided to take a look at his neck at long last.
The Clinic was running 2 hours late, so we ended up having quite a long day. We set off at 9.15am and finally got home at 3.15pm. I was knackered. However, that night I was teaching the beginner’s photography class so had to pull my leaden body and foggy brain together. I managed to get through it but was so exhausted it was like an outer body experience and I can’t remember a thing about the evening or what I said!
I coped really well all things considered but the next day I woke to find I was crippled with pain and could barely walk. I blamed it on all the driving and having to push my Dad’s wheelchair…………until my period arrived out of the blue My surging hormones seem to be affecting my ligaments massively as I transition into Menopause and even though my period has now finished my back and legs are still stupidly painful. The constant shooting nerve pain right down to my ankles is particularly wearing and I can’t get comfortable enough to sleep. I’m so over it I can’t even tell you and I had to miss Wednesday’s Camera Club as I simply couldn’t sit upright.
Thursday night I’d agreed to go to a Club event. It was a buffet to thank those of us who had judged a recent International Photography Salon and I’d really been looking forward to it as I have no social life and rarely get to mix with other people. Sod’s law that it coincided with having to take my Dad to the Hospital and my unexpected period, and I woke that morning feeling like road kill. I lay in bed and cried at the unfairness of it all before eventually pulling my sorry arse together and just getting on with it. I rested until late afternoon, had a bath, took some ibuprofen, slapped on my TENS machine and my SI belt and off I toddled. I’m glad I forced myself to go because I had a smashing night but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t still suffering for it three days on.
I’ve lost my reading glasses. The case is on my over-the-bed table as it always is but the specs are nowhere to be found. I have no clue where they could be and have searched every inch of my little house to no avail. £160 of spectacles seem to have disappeared into the ether just before Christmas when I’m already broke. FFS!
Speaking of Christmas, it’s five weeks away and I haven’t given it a second’s thought. Arrrghhhh, panic!!
Today I am going out for lunch with my bestie 🙂 I don’t know why but this week I’ve felt lonely and a bit sorry for myself so I’m looking forward to seeing her, plus there’s the added bonus of someone else making me a meal for a change which is my idea of heaven. But first I have to get my thermals on and take the hound out. It’s a stunning, crisp late Autumn morning here in the lake district but it’s bollock freezing cold and I’m definitely going to need a hot water bottle stuffed under my jumper to keep me warm on my scooter. It makes me look as fat as a whale but I’ve gained so much weight in the last 12 months I actually am as fat as a huge blubbery whale, so that’s alright then 😉