I’m at the end of my 7th week in lockdown, a week longer than the rest of the UK as I started early, and yesterday was the first day I’ve felt a bit bored. Each day is the same as the one before and the fact it’s now May largely passed me by as I feel frozen in time.
I’m delighted to report the Tesco delivery situation finally seems to be easing. My nearest store now has 2 extra vans and I’ve been able to secure my usual slot for the next 4 weeks without stopping up until midnight (I have access to a month in advance as I have a pre-paid delivery saver plan). My Mum now also has her own delivery for the next 2 weeks as a priority customer, which means I’m still able to shop for my two disabled and vulnerable elderly friends in the next town without exceeding the 80 item limit.
My sister-in-law had her 2nd round of chemotherapy on Monday for breast cancer. The first one went really well so none of us were in any way concerned, which meant we were unprepared for her to have a severe reaction to the drugs. Apparently, nurses came running from all over the clinic and my s-i-l said she felt like she was going to die 😦 However, they stabilized her and eventually she managed to finish her treatment, though is going to be petrified to face her next lot.
My health hasn’t been good this week. I am so stiff and sore I can barely hobble, and I’ve had 5 migraines in 8 days (as I type this I have a gel strip on my forehead having woken with yesterday’s migraine still in tow). Just over a week ago I bought some new pillows, which are really comfortable, but I’m wondering if they aren’t doing my neck any favours. I suspect the major culprit, however, is my hormones. Yesterday was day 34 of my cycle and I had cramps and spotting. I’ve also been so overwhelmingly exhausted this week it’s been difficult just to get dressed and my brain function has been scarily, scarily bad.
I continue to munch like the hungry caterpillar from a mixture of boredom, frustration and menopause cravings. My willpower did a bunk months ago and I’ve given up trying to find it. I’ll eat just about anything, so long as it contains copious amounts of fat and sugar, and now bare an uncanny resemblance to the Michelin Man. I have enough spare tyres to keep Silverstone going for the next12 months and don’t so much have orange peel on my thighs as an entire crate of Jaffas from the waist down 😉.
Despite everything, to save my sanity I’ve tried to do a bit of photography. I trawled through my back catalogue and found a couple of pictures I’d forgotten I’d taken, including this portrait of a young girl in my village. I also did my version of a Lockdown photo which is, admittedly, a bit weird plus a still life of a Tulip out of my garden alongside a Praying Mantis (which I didn’t find in my garden you’ll be pleased to know! 😁).
I see from the BBC this morning that the Government are looking at ways to phase out the lockdown, however it’s largely irrelevant to me. The virus hasn’t gone anywhere and there isn’t a vaccine or any treatment, so it’s still not safe for either myself or my parents to suddenly start mingling with the rest of society. I suspect I won’t be leaving self-imposed isolation for several months yet, which doesn’t massively bother me and to be fair isn’t so very unusual from how I normally live. I would like to be able to drive my car, though, and to go off on photography days somewhere remote just for a change of scenery.
I hope, wherever you are, you’re managing to stay safe and stay sane. Until next week my friends xoxo