When I adopted Bertie in 2008 I felt like it was meant to be. I looked at loads of dogs online in local rescue centres but the signs that he was The One shouted at me loud and clear. For a start he has the same name as my Dad – I know, freaky! And for seconds he has the same birthday as my Nanna. The Universe couldn’t have been clearer if he’d had He’s Yours tattooed on his cute, furry forehead.
I moved into my current house in 2004. I’d been looking for the right property for 5 lonnnng years, but due to my health problems I had strict criteria. It had to be within a 7 mile radius of my parents – tick. Outdoor space but no lawn to mow as I couldn’t cope – tick. Two bedrooms – tick. A good sized bathroom with a separate shower – tick. And I longed for a separate utility room – tick. But there were things I was uneasy about. I absolutely didn’t want to live by a road due to my brain issues and need to rest, and this house was literally 4 feet away from the curbside. I’d also desperately wanted a view and this house really didn’t have one. I would have ummmed and ahhhhhd over buying it, if it weren’t for 2 things: when I’d lain in bed dreaming about my next house, for some reason I simply knew it would contain a sink in the bedroom and tongue & groove panelling in the bathroom rather than tiles. Don’t ask me how I knew this, I just did. And sure enough my current house has both. It’s weird when you think about it, because what house these days has a sink in the bedroom? An en suite maybe, but just a sink?! And to add icing to the cake, the postcode for the property is my parents’ initials 😮
Having said all that, I didn’t get the warm and fuzzies over my current house. It felt like a compromise being next to the road and having no view and even when I bought it I felt a bit flat. My intuition knew it was the right house for me at the time, but not for all time. And although on the whole I’ve been really happy living in my little cottage for the past 15 years, here I am moving on.
Like last time I’ve been looking for a bungalow now for 5 lonnnnng years and had said internally to myself that if something hadn’t come up by Xmas I was going to stop searching and try and be happy where I am. And, blow-me-over-with-a-feather, I had my offer accepted on the house I’m buying 4 days before Christmas – sign number 1.
The house I’m moving to is in a tiny hamlet that I’d never been to in my life before, yet when I drove through it to view the property I genuinely got the warm and fuzzies and a word kept jumping into my mind in capital letters: HOME. Even now when I approach the village I suddenly feel happy for no reason. Sign number 2.
I desperately wanted a large room to use as a photography studio and it never crossed my mind I’d find a bungalow with a separate annexe. Sign number 3.
I have a gorgeous view – tick. The house is on a slight hill and set well back from the road – tick. In fact, all those years ago when I was living in town and dreaming of living in the country what I ideally wanted was a detached house with a private, south facing garden, a view and to have space but not be totally isolated from neighbours and as it turns out my Dad knows the neighbour opposite, who came over to introduce himself and seems lovely. Tick, tick, tick and tick!
We have “gut feelings” about things and voices whisper to us that we simply don’t listen to. We push thoughts away because our reason tells us we’re being ridiculous, when we really should be trusting our intuition more. We should take heed of the signs and not poo pooh them as wishful thinking. As I get older, and more confident in who I am as a person, I listen to other people less and my inner self more. Which isn’t to say this move will be easy or stress free. In fact, at 3.30am this morning I woke having a panic attack at what I’m about to take on and what could go wrong and I remember lying in bed on the first night in my little cottage and wondering what the fuck I’d done! Following our dreams takes courage and a leap of faith but when the signs are there we know everything will turn out OK in the end.