I haven’t had my scan yet for my “suspicious lump”. I’m trying not to think about it but it must be playing on my mind because I’m not sleeping well and have been having lots of stressful anxiety dreams. Understandable I guess.
I rang about my Dad’s CT scan results and they are still not back. It’s been nearly 5 weeks now and we’ve all had enough, so we’re paying to see a neurologist privately just as soon as we can get an appointment. He first saw a consultant 15 months ago, yet we still don’t have a diagnosis and he’s received absolutely no treatment, despite going from being able to walk 6 miles to being in a wheelchair. It’s a disgrace.
I posted on Facebook this week about the fact that I’m leaving my Camera Club and I said exactly why. Ostracizing is the most common form of adult bullying and bullying is something I thought I’d left behind 40 years ago in the school playground. The whole point of ostracizing someone is to cause psychological pain and distress, as if I don’t have enough on my plate already. Quite what these 3 women’s issue is with me I have no idea, though I know for a fact with 1 of them it’s pure jealousy. I am not keeping quiet about these bullies, however, and will name and shame them at every opportunity. The fact that one of them left their former Camera Club because they were bullying a member there, and have come to my Club and bullied me, says a lot about them as a person. The thing that makes me furious is that all 3 bullies have put themselves on the committee for next season.
I desperately needed to take my mind off everything this week, so on Wednesday my bestie and I went up the lakes to attend a literary festival and have a bite of lunch. We went to a fascinating talk on brain gender by the neuroscientist Gina Rippon, who had some very interesting things to say on whether there are innate differences between male and female brains. Google Rippon, though, and you will find a lot of trolling. Not only is she female (how dare women say that they aren’t, in fact, inferior to men) but she disputes the status quo. Way to go Gina is all I have to say 🙂
Other than that I’ve achieved nothing. The weather has been atrocious and I am poleaxed by exhaustion at the mo. I don’t know whether it’s stress, hormones, the fact I’m not eating properly (I feel sick constantly and have awful tummy pain) or probably a combination of all three, but my mojo has buggered off to pastures new. Despite that, I have forced myself to do some photography this week. I’ve taken hardly any pictures since last November, probably because I haven’t been happy at my Club, but I refuse to let those bitches destroy my passion so I have spent a few hours in the spare bedroom wearing a ballgown and wielding a sledge hammer! Don’t try this at home, especially if you have hEDS or ME 😉 . I ended up with this picture entitled ‘Breaking the Glass Ceiling‘.