As regular readers will know, when my parents became ill I found myself working 7 days a week. I was either trying to keep my own home going or keep theirs going and it was killing me. So I had to re-evaluate my life and put in place some boundaries – I couldn’t care for them if I was grinding myself into the ground.
One of the things I did was to book three 2 week “holidays” a year – Spring, Autumn and Christmas. I can’t actually afford to go anywhere, but the plan is just to blob about recharging my batteries, or have my parents help me more by looking after the dog while I go off for whole days out, something I never do.
I started my Autumn staycation last Friday but so far it hasn’t gone quite to plan. I’ve been doing so much lately that the second I stopped I felt dreadful, so the first 3 days of this week were spent mostly in bed with intense nausea, brain fog, exhaustion and pain. Next Tuesday night, to help out a friend who is currently in hospital, I agreed to do a 2 hour presentation for our Camera Club’s beginner’s class, so I spent a whole day putting a PowerPoint presentation together. Next Wednesday night I had my arm twisted to do a 30 minute demonstration on how to use the Google Nik collection software at Camera Club, so one morning I spent 4 hours putting that together. I also spent 4 hours doing my Church newsletter which is something I volunteer for all year long and this week just happened to be the deadline for the October edition. I haven’t blobbed about for a single second of any day, or been anywhere, or read any of the foot high pile of books I have next to my bed – it so far hasn’t felt like much of a break.
However, it was my 49th birthday this week and I did have a gorgeous lunch out with my folks, although I did still have to walk Bertie afterwards even though I was shattered. I have to confess that special days like Birthdays when you’re single are a bit of a same old same old day as there is no-one to bring you breakfast in bed, no-one to volunteer to take the dog out for you and no-one to make a fuss. Presents and lunch aside it really was just another day doing the same old chores and today I really must do some laundry as I’m running out of clean pants!
Being as though this week hasn’t felt in any way like a holiday I’ve decided to extend my break by another week. Once I get my presentations out of the way, then spend a few days exhausted and brain fogged from the effort, I’m hoping I will at least get some time to rest and relax. Wish me luck!