I’m doing my roundup a day early this week as I’m hoping to visit my bezzie mate (who lives 40 miles away) tomorrow and won’t have time. Having said all that, it’s due to snow tonight so lord knows whether I’ll even be able to get out of my village in the morning as our roads don’t get gritted!
I’d like to take this opportunity to thank my lovely readers for all the support shown to me over the very difficult situation with my Mum. You were so kind, generous, understanding and non-judgemental……..and I really needed that. Well, apart from the one commenter who obviously behaves as badly as my Mom, who hurts her children the way my Mom hurts me, and who basically wanted to justify her own behaviour – she needed to shut the fuck up. This week has been like night and day. When I’ve been to Mum’s house there has been no half pint tumbler of vodka next to her seat. She has been lucid. She has been awake. She has joined in the conversation. She has even made me laugh. She has not been a half asleep, slurring, confused, snappy, irritable drunk…..and it’s been lovely. It won’t last though, obviously. She’s an alcoholic. But it’s still nice to know she still cares enough about me, deep down, to try. It’s felt like a holiday.
I have been deafened, however, by the silence of my readers over my low histamine in foods research. Not a single comment! I’m stunned at the lack of evidence all the low histamine food lists are based on. I’m angry that people online are making money out of sick people based on no truth whatsoever. I’m mortified the lists are, for the most part, based on nothing but pure guesswork being as though my health (and potentially my life) is so dependent on what I eat. And I’m surprised I’m the only one to feel this way (well, apart from my mate Sarah who wrote to me as mortified as I am).
I’ve had a cold this week. At least, I think it’s been a cold – hard to tell when you have ME and feel like you’re coming down with some evil lergie every second of every day. I’ve been sneezing and bunged up for nearly a month now, as well as extra achy and exhausted. I put it down to my mast cells playing up and giving me hayfever-type symptoms. But then last weekend I started to absolutely stream, my head was banging, I sneezed my head off and I could barely put one food past the other. So I thought I had a cold. But then 2 days later it just dried up. I still feel like it’s lurking though. That’s the thing when you have diseases which affect your immune system – it doesn’t behave as it should. So I still don’t know if I have/have had a cold, I just know I feel extra shite and am struggling to find the energy to get dressed in a morning.
Speaking of which, I need to get up and take Bertie out – it’s going to be bollock-freezing cold on my scooter this morning as it was -10C overnight. I might need 2 hot water bottles stuffed up my jacket, not just one, and I’ll have to hunt out my balaclava 😉 I’ll leave you with a photo of a young male deer fawn I took the other day in the snow – good job I didn’t have the dog with me, he would have chased it from here to France!