Sorry for being a bit quiet recently. To be honest I’ve been down in the dumps and feeling sorry for myself. I had my period 2 weeks ago, and although it wasn’t too bad I’ve been very lax since and my back and hips have been painful. I also haven’t been sleeping well which makes me tired and grumpy. On the upside, however, I had one migraine just before my period started and have had none since (shhhh, don’t tell anyone in case the God’s are listening!).
I’ve never been one to suffer too badly from PMT, but since the peri-menopause started I’m getting post period depression and anxiety. For the 10-14 days between the start of my period and ovulation I feel really down and get some quite bad anxiety attacks. Once I’ve ovulated though I feel calmer and happier, so I’m hoping the situation improves in the next day or two.
My root canal saga rumbles on. I have constant toothache all of the time, which seems to get worse as the day wears on. Last night I was in tears and lying with my face on a hot water bottle. It’s been nearly 2 months now and I’m proper fed up of the whole thing. My dentist doesn’t know where the pain is coming from and neither do I. I still can’t even bear to touch the back of my tooth with my tongue it’s so sensitive and haven’t been able to eat anything on that side since the beginning. I know that’s causing me some jaw issues as my bite is wonky, so some of the pain is referred pain, but my gums feel tender and the actual tooth is still so sore. There is no infection left, the canals have been cleaned out no less than 5 times (!) and my x-rays (all 3 of them!) look perfect. Is it just the ligaments which are sore due to my EDS? Why no improvement after 2 whole months?! If I could just have the damned thing out I would, but of course even that isn’t straight forward. The roots extend to my sinus cavity, so it’s a hospital job if I have it removed – and there is a 3 month waiting list 😦 I miss painkillers.
Over 2 months ago I sprained my finger and it’s still swollen, I can’t fully bend it and it’s still sore to pressure and touch. So I’ve made an appointment with the O.T. next week to get an Oval-8 for the PIP joint in the hopes that some stabilization will help it heal.
On top of the pain I’m having a bad bout of nausea, plus some griping stomach pains, which is also getting me down. My bowel movements are fine, so I’m not quite sure what the constant 24/7 nausea is all about.
Various jobs have needed doing in the house lately, including getting pest control in to deal with a Wasp’s nest, trying to get quotes to have my shed roof repaired and replaced, getting Environmental Health out to a smelly drain, and spending 2 hours yesterday trying to hang a new front gate after my old one fell apart (I simply have no money to get someone in to do it for me). On top of feeling so rubbish it’s all felt like too much and yesterday I could happily have sold up and gone to live in a tent.
To add to the stress my little dog Bertie ate something he shouldn’t this week and the Vet had to ring the poisons unit in London to find out whether or not to pump his stomach. He didn’t end up needing it done thank God, but I now have to wait 6 days to see if he becomes anaemic which isn’t helping my stress levels one iota.
And as if all that weren’t bad enough my beloved camera has been away at the menders for 3 entire weeks, so in the best patch of weather we’ve seen all year I haven’t been able to take a single photo. I’ve missed puppies being born, I’ve missed the chicks I’ve waited months for hatching and fledging and all the early summer wild flowers that are now dying. I finally got the camera back from Olympus yesterday only to find it’s worse than before it went, despite me paying nearly 1/3 of the price of the camera to have it mended. It will only take one shot before freezing completely. Olympus just said to send it back again, but that means being without my camera for most of July. I enter the Countryfile Calendar competition, and the Kennel Club dog photograph competition, every year and both have recently been announced – which means I have 3 weeks to get some fabulous shots, get them printed and sent off. With no camera it’s never going to happen. I literally have this one picture of a Robin feeding its chick I managed to capture in my car port in the spring and that’s it. I’ve asked Olympus to send me a replacement while mine is away, but despite them saying they’d ring me back they haven’t. I know all this sounds petty, but I have so few pleasures in life, and taking pictures is my one stress release. The past few weeks have just felt like a mass of pain, nausea and depression with no joy or redeeming features 😦
Due to all of the above I haven’t been trying out many new recipes the past few weeks, so I apologise I have nothing new food-wise to share with you. I have been trying to make a Mango chutney minus vinegar but so far no joy – I’ve sent for some dried Mango Powder to see if it will give me the sourness the chutney is lacking so I’ll let you know how it goes.